When can I stop being a witness to someone else's moment?

Love? What's that?

When can I experience love?

Finding someone who you like and that same someone who likes you at the same time, is really so difficult. I really am jealous of people who can find their partners so easily.

Is it my turn yet?

U ARE ALWAYS THE ONE WHO TURNS UR BACK ON ME.

TODAY WHAT U DID REALLY PISS ME OFF BECAUSE WHAT I CANT STAND MOST ABOUT PEOPLE IS PEOPLE WHO DOES NOT REPLY TO MESSAGES. AND THE POINT THAT YOU READ THE MESSAGE WHICH IS CLEARLY A QUESTION, MAKES IT MUCH MUCH WORSE AND UNFORGIVABLE.

EVEN IF U REALLY DISLIKE ME, U COULD HAVE JUST END IT THERE WITH A YES OR A NO REPLY. THEN I WILL GET THE POINT BUT U CHOSE TO JUST IGNORE THAT QUESTION. IGNORING A GIRL IS NOT A GUY SHOULD DO, EVEN IF U DISLIKE HER. DON'T TELL ME YOU ARE BUSY BECAUSE I AM NOT BLIND AND I HAVE A BRAIN. A PERSON WHO IS BUSY WILL NOT GO TO FACEBOOK EVERY FEW HOURS. THE FACT THAT U READ THE MESSAGE AND CHOOSE NOT TO REPLY TRUELY MEASURES HOW IMPORTANT I AM TO U.

THAT IS, I AM NOT EVEN IMPORTANT TO YOU. I WAS SO NAIIVE. SO SO NAIIVE. IDIOT. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE. YOU ARE NOT EVEN TALL, DARK HANDSOME. WHAT WAS I DOING FOR THE PAST WEEKS, PAST SEMESTER??? WHAT A JOKE MAN.

NOW, THE GAME TURNS AROUND. LET'S SEE WHO WIN THIS GAME YA? JERK.

I have always been a rational person. From the start of the new year till now, however, I haven't been.

I think I have spent too much time and energy thinking about all possibilities that I myself aren't sure can happen.

You could be treating me as a friend, maybe an eye candy, maybe a crush, maybe observing and seeing if I am the one for you. But, I am already so tired, been someone who tends to over-think about issues.

It has been around 8 months. Sometimes I think, if you really feel the same about me, our relationship would not still be so stagnant. We are like waiting for chances to occur naturally and I had to make wishes that chances can happen between us when I am a statistics students who know about probability and chances more than anyone else.

Therefore, this morning, I have made a decision. I will only wait till the end of this March. If there are progress between the two of us, by progress I mean wats-apping each other/fb msg each other almost everyday/we going out together/going home frequency becomes often/something along this line, then I will continue to wait. If not, I need to carry on with my life and stop dwelling my emotions onto you.

Yup, this is a promise I made to myself and we shall see till then.

You don't even have my number. You know, instagram and facebook are still so not real.