Dear future boyfriend,

I have been waiting for you for a very long time. Are you waiting for my appearance too? Right now, I am super worried about your existence. I am afraid that you won't appear.

I really can't wait to show you off to my friends, text you everyday and have you in my dreams and thoughts every, single moment. I can't wait to take so many photos with you, ponder what to wear during dates and explore cafes and theme parks with you. I can't wait to hug you, kiss you and see that bright smile of yours whenever we meet. I can't wait to celebrate each others birthdays and give each other surprises. I can't wait to celebrate Valentine's day with you and prepare gifts for you. I really can't wait.

So, can you please appear? I don't know how much more patience I have before I break down. Can you please find me now?

Love

Your future girlfriend

Sometimes I feel that my friends in university don't understand me at all. Or is it because I don't want to and did not grow up since secondary school?

Every time when I tell them things like "Eh, this guy so cute", they will take it seriously and think that I should go forward and get to know him. When I say more than one guy being cute, they will not understand and feel that I am being not loyal or whatever. But the thing is, saying a guy cute does not mean anything, I just find him cute and not want to get into a relationship with him. Why don't they get it?

And another friend of mine got attached. Whatever la. Mine will come some day. Its not because I am not good, but for someone to tolerate my nonsense and for me to open up to someone, it takes time. This is most probably why this is the case. But is alright, I already have alot in life and I should be appreciative of all these. Love comes in different forms. Romantic love, I may not have experienced yet, but it will come some day. (:

Happy April Fools everyone!

I had a great laugh today and I hope everyone did too!

Anyway, its April already, and yes, it ended. There is nothing between the both of us and I wonder if he will really appear in tutorial this Thursday and what would happen if he came.

But I guess I really learn a lot from this. That people are no longer that innocent and naiive. There is no such thing as two people liking each other, love at first sight, and whatever stuff that happens in romance. Maybe they do, but if you are not that pretty or handsome, chances are, just continue dreaming. I think, it really takes effort from both parties to make a relationship happen. No point trying if the other is just waiting and not doing anything, hoping that things happen magically. I think timing also plays an important role. Like if the timing of both parties just doesn't fit, it just doesn't happen. So I do agree that fate plays a significant role in romance. HAHA.

And a very, very important message for everyone is, don't every just fall for someone who you think likes you. Be very sure that you like him not because you are desperate or that you THINK that person likes you. Because if this happens, then you will get really hurt when you find out that he do this to every girl or that he is no longer interested in you. You will feel demoralised and bad about yourself, wondering what happen and whether you have lost your attractiveness. NO, no one can ever put you down.

So message to every one out there finding their soul mate and to me as well, one day that person who loves you and who you love will appear. It may take quite a long time, but believe me, one day when you look back, you will feel that this wait is worth it. That person wouldn't make you hurt and cry for. He will be willing to sacrifice for you just like how you are willing to sacrifice for him. You don't have to pray for things to happen because the two of you seems to think so alike that you two just happen to do the same thing, appear at the place the same time. He will make sure you see him, notice him and yes, one day all this will happen to you.

So everyone, let's all have a little more confidence, a little more faith and a little more courage. We all deserve to be loved. Smile and have a great April! (: