I am so upset. I don't know what I am feeling. I want to cry. I don't want to be in singapore. Can I be in BKK now? I want to look forward to seeing his hair, his dressing style, his ear studs. Just when I found someone else to replace the jerk, its impossible again.

I don't know why, but it seems that relationship is always going against me. If only crying can help.

Tonight will be another tearful night.