I am tired. Tired of this kind of thing. My ears are sharp. I can hear stuff. If you don't want to go, then don't go. I didn't force you all right? So now its my fault?! My fault that it rained? I am disappointed. Friends? We are friends and yet you all still don't know my character? We are friends and yet we gossip about each other? I am tired. Kind of regret coming for this trip, if not I would have money for this month. Sigh.

Why is it so hard for me to make guy friends? So hard to start a conversation with someone? How come he starts a convo with her but not me? Why is it that I have to think of something to talk about and not the other way round? I am so tired of all this shit. Like really, I think I might suffocate to death one day because of this. Why do I have to be the one? I am upset, worried and depressed. Can't I experience being loved by someone? Why of all people, me? I am really tired.