The next time we meet will be CY"s birthday party? You actually said that while disregarding my presence? You know what is the worst feeling one can get? It"s the feeling that people remembers that this festival is important to you but makes no effort to help you celebrate it. So, No one is going to make an effort to help me celebrate because I am not having a party and that all of your are busy? Are your still my friends. Am I that insignificant to all of you? This is really so upsetting.

Today during steamboat, my friend still told me that Monday is my birthday, but no attempts has been made to ask me out. I am really so so so upset.

Who are the ones who will remember? I really wonder. I am afraid of the arrival of 17 February because I can already sense the disappointment that I am going to experience.

Expectations vs Reality. ):