These few days I feel super lonely and sensitive again. People around me seems to unintensionly show me how lonely I am. I always press the only button on my iphone, secretly wishing that I have a message notification from facebook or a wats app message for me only and not a group chat one. I don't want to discuss about work, I want someone to talk to me, just someone who wants to chat with me. I feel so lonely and unwanted when my friends' boyfriends approach them and then start to give the soft glances to their partners. I can see those eyes suddenly changing from the hard stares to those glances that are so soft.

I want someone whom I can disturb as and when I want to and know that someone is there for me every single moment. Someone who is only for me. I am so so so upset with myself. I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. I am so tired, so depressed and so afraid. Who can help me? Why am I the one having to face this? :(((((((((((( May this feeling go away soon.

And it really really hurts when you try so hard to approach someone and then realise that that person doesn't care at all and don't want to move forward. You know what I want is to just know more about you and become a friend instead of just a senior? If everything happens for a reason, then why do I have to know your existence and yet can't move on and become friends with you? Why are you not approaching me to ask me about your exchange when you said you will ask me about it? Why are you not doing these stuff when I took the initiative to talk to you before? A girl talking to you and yet you put a blind eye to it, you know how hurtful this is?