I think there is this part of emotions that I chose to ignore and chunk aside. I thought that it would be gone if I just not think about it, but it did not. These days, I am not thinking about this thing called love, because I have other things to be worried about and I dont know who to talk to about. I am honestly afraid. Only new staff in a totally new environment. Just a simple conversation makes me feel so touched. I really appreciate colleagues who tries to talk to me. Friends tell me that it is not possible to make friends in the working environment and I secretly hope that this is untrue. Everyday, I report to work and see the same people. Is it not possible to make friends?

Being an adult. I am now an adult. I have responsibilities coming my way. Is the money I earn enough? So many things to worry about. Sigh, I need to feel better soon.

Was it because I was too happy ytd? I thought I made a new friend but wow, what a joke. Why do I have a feeling that he is being nice just because I wear nicer ytd? LOL, seriously joke leh. How can he say those words. They were so glaring. "Why do I need to help her? She is a dancer what, dancer got a lot of strength one." Wow, you not gentlemantly then say la. Pattern slowly coming out liao lor. Last time still help me open door, ask me walk first. Now kns la please. Just because today she wear nice then like that la. Idiot, the girl also one kind on leh seriously. Talk to me then like not happy, talk to him so happy wor. Sigh, shouldn't have trusted him so much ytd. Now regretting so much. Breathe in, breathe out. Positive mind, positive vibes, positive life. No one helps u in the working world. Only u help urself. Jiayou.